I have a baby shower I'm supposed to go to this Sunday, and I feel terrible saying it, but I'm DREADING it. It's the shower of one of my friends who was lucky enough to get pregnant "on the first try". I love this girl and really do wish her the best, but I can't help but be hideously jealous. And I just feel disgusted with myself that I can't be overjoyed with happiness for her.
I was looking at her registries online just now because I've been putting off getting her a gift. I broke down sobbing somewhere between the nursing pads and the receiving blankets. And I'm just really worried that I won't be able to hold it together on Sunday. I feel like I should be there, but I definitely don't want to be "that girl" either. What to do...
Sigh.
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