Shy Ovary

I went in today for blood work and an ultrasound.  All my ultrasounds (I've had 5 so far) have been transvaginal.  So, in the movies when you see women go in and have the wand rubbed on their belly and then a cute picture of a little peanut shows up, and they're all emotional and happy and stuff...yeah, that's not really how my experiences have been.

Rather, I have to lay there, getting probed while worrying that I might pee myself (it hasn't happened yet).  And of course, there's never really anything to see...just blackness (and I guess a uterus and ovaries).  Or in today's case, an ovary.  While doing my ultrasound today, she looked and looked and was never able to find my right ovary.  We've seen it before, so we know I have one...but I guess it was hiding.  They didn't seem to be concerned about my ovary being on vacation, so I guess I won't be either.

The rest of my appointment went fine.  I sat with Nurse Marci and talked about the new meds I'm going to be starting soon.  I start the microdose Lupron on Friday.  I have to give myself morning and evening injections for that.

Then on Sunday, I will start taking Gonal-F and Menopur again.  Instead of one vial of Menopur a day, I'm now going to have to take 3 vials a day.  I will start HCG shots that day as well.  So, as if we hadn't yet spent enough on meds, we're going to be ordering another $1000 worth.

As my nurse said today, if it all works and we get our baby...we won't care about the cost.  And if it doesn't?  Well, we're going to be one really poor pissed off babyless couple.

Next Tuesday I will go back in for bloodwork.  That will be the big estradiol/progesterone test that will determine whether we can move forward.  I'll be glad when that day is over, because I'm still feeling a little anxious about this whole thing happening again.  We're definitely making changes to prevent the low estradiol levels, I'm just hoping it's enough!  I guess we'll know next Tuesday...