My biggest fear since I can remember has always been that, for whatever reason, I wouldn't be able to have kids. I don't know if this is normal or not, but it's always been something that I've worried about.
With that being said, I've also always prided myself in the way my life has turned out. I'm a planner and so far my life really has gone according to plan. I knew in high school that I wanted to be an elementary school teacher, so when it was time to go off to college, I didn't really have any trouble with deciding what I wanted to major in. I went to college. I met the love of my life. I graduated. I got a job. Got married. Bought a house...I did all the things I wanted to in the order that I wanted to.
I've always wanted children...more than anything. But I always knew that I wanted them after all the above mentioned things took place. I wanted to be married first. I wanted to own a house.
So when we moved in to our new home in May of 2011, it seemed kids was the next step. My husband and I were both emotionally ready, but then came the question of whether or not we were financially ready. We had just made the largest investment of our lives. Were we really able to jump right in to parenthood? We gave ourselves a few months to think about it. And we surprisingly didn't have trouble making our monthly mortgage payment, and were even able to continue putting money into savings.
Come August, it was time for me to go in for my yearly well woman exam. My birth control prescription had expired and it sparked the baby conversation between my husband and me. We both decided at that time that we were ready. So I went in for my appointment, and for the first time in 8 years, I said, "No, I do not need to renew my prescription." My doctor and I then discussed prenatals, whether I could continue to take my current allergy meds, and other pregnancy related topics. I was excited.
Little did I know the long journey I would have ahead of me...
Almost a year later, here I am. Not a mom. Not pregnant. This blog is my story. And aren't all good stories supposed to have a happy ending? I guess I'm hoping if I write it all down, my Happily Ever After may one day come.
With that being said, I've also always prided myself in the way my life has turned out. I'm a planner and so far my life really has gone according to plan. I knew in high school that I wanted to be an elementary school teacher, so when it was time to go off to college, I didn't really have any trouble with deciding what I wanted to major in. I went to college. I met the love of my life. I graduated. I got a job. Got married. Bought a house...I did all the things I wanted to in the order that I wanted to.
I've always wanted children...more than anything. But I always knew that I wanted them after all the above mentioned things took place. I wanted to be married first. I wanted to own a house.
So when we moved in to our new home in May of 2011, it seemed kids was the next step. My husband and I were both emotionally ready, but then came the question of whether or not we were financially ready. We had just made the largest investment of our lives. Were we really able to jump right in to parenthood? We gave ourselves a few months to think about it. And we surprisingly didn't have trouble making our monthly mortgage payment, and were even able to continue putting money into savings.
Come August, it was time for me to go in for my yearly well woman exam. My birth control prescription had expired and it sparked the baby conversation between my husband and me. We both decided at that time that we were ready. So I went in for my appointment, and for the first time in 8 years, I said, "No, I do not need to renew my prescription." My doctor and I then discussed prenatals, whether I could continue to take my current allergy meds, and other pregnancy related topics. I was excited.
Little did I know the long journey I would have ahead of me...
Almost a year later, here I am. Not a mom. Not pregnant. This blog is my story. And aren't all good stories supposed to have a happy ending? I guess I'm hoping if I write it all down, my Happily Ever After may one day come.
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